it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it, to know what true freedom is - Lana Del Rey

it's time like this as the marine layer lifts
off the sea off the dock where we're standing with the candle lit
that i think to myself
there's things you still don't know about me
like sometimes I'm afraid my sadness is too big
and that one day you might have to help me handle it

Loving you forever can't be wrong. Even though you're not here, can't move on

I was always an unusual girl,
my mother told me I had a chameleon soul
No moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality;
just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean
I belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone
who had nothing, who wanted everything