We’ve run marathons together on all seven continents.” “You ran a marathon in Antarctica?” “Ran it? She won it! - Brandon Stanton

I still dream about him almost every night. And I still sleep with a teddy bear that he gave me. He was the only one why ever knew me. It wasn't always good - especially toward the end. But when I was with him I felt like I had a place. When I came home at night, there was somebody who actually wanted me to be there. And you can't just let go of something like that. Especially when you'd never felt it before. And you've never felt it since. Carmine was the only one who ever loved Stephanie.

And I hate to say this because I know it hurts my kids, but I'd rather die with him in addiction than be sober alone.

Sometimes you need to allow life to save you from getting what you want.