I had high expectations It's something I could not compromise And when I saw you I wasn't ready It completely took my heart by surprise. - Alanis Morissette

You're unsure and you're not ready,
So that must mean I want you.
You're unavailable and disinterested,
To you I look for comfort.
A million times in a million ways,
I will try to change you.
A million months and a million days,
I'll try to convince you.

This is a life of extremes
Both sides are slippery and enticing
These are my places off the rails
And this, my loose recollection of a falling
I barely remember who I failed
I was just trying to keep it together. This is my first wave of my white flag
This is the sound of me hitting bottom
This, my surrender, if that's what you call it
In the anatomy of my crash.

"To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one's been crueler than I've been to me.

-"Sorry to Myself