So while it seemed like you were seeing everything, you really weren't. Just bits and pieces that looked like a whole. - Sarah Dessen

"Maybe not," she said as we came to the car. "But maybe that isn't so bad. You can't love anyone that way more than once in a lifetime. It's too hard and it hurts too much when it ends. The first boy is always the hardest to get over, Haven. It's just the way the world works."

Yeah, I said, swallowing and looking out my open door, at the ocean. The answer's yes.

And that was it. All this buildup to a great leap, and I didn't fall or fly. Instead I found myself back on the edge of the cliff, blinking, wondering if I'd ever jumped at all. It's not supposed to be like this.