Thus pleasure itself, also becoming a right, lost its aggressive futility. - Jean-Paul Sartre

I think that is the big danger in keeping a diary: you exaggerate everything.

You are a tiny little girl, Electra. Other little girls dreamed of being the richest or the most beautiful women of all. And you, fascinated by the horrid destiny of your people, you wished to become the most pained and the most criminal ... At your age, children still play with dolls and they play hopscotch. You, poor child, without toys or playmates, you played murder, because it is a game that one can play alone.

Man is not only that which he conceives himself to be, but that which he wills himself to be...