Michael wondered why it was the tragic things that remained with him most vividly. - Bernard MacLaverty

There's nobody can fix this but yourself. You are the only one who can make the changes.

On the wall above the desk was an ikon he had bought in Thessaloníki - he afterwards discovered that he had paid too much for it. It had been hanging for some months before he noticed, his attention focused by a moment of rare idleness, that Christ had a woodworm hole in the pupil of his left eye. It was inconspicuous by its position, and rather than detracting from the impact, he felt the ikon was enhanced by the authenticity of this small defect.

Cal, the world is full of gulpins who don't care who they hurt.