"And then what?" said her daemon sleepily. "Build what?" "The Republic of Heaven," said Lyra. - Philip Pullman

I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.

Everyone, from the Mother Superior to the priests to my parents — they were so upset and reproachful...I felt as if something they all passionately believed in depended on me carrying on with something I didn't.

People are too complicated to have simple labels.