Every sound comes into my ears dirty because you've heard it on the way - Jean-Paul Sartre

Roquentin wonders if he could do the same as the man who wrote the tune. Not in music, but in the realm of art. Not a history book, because that is about what has existed, and existence is pointless, is not necessary.

What do you want to do with the [Communist] Party? A racing stable? What good is it to sharpen a knife every day if you never use it for slicing? A party is never more than a means. There is only one objective: power.

I wanted the moments of my life to follow and order themselves like those of a life remembered.