My heart crumbles into my aching soul because I know that I will never get the answer, but all I want to ask you is: Why did you ask me to love you w… - Najwa Zebian

I feel that I am on the verge
of disappearing,
of surrendering into nothingness,
of accepting that I am worth
absolutely nothing
and that I deserve what happened to me.
And everything that it did to me.
I have no power.
Where do I get it from?

You turn your back on yourself when you allow every closed door to stop you from moving on to the next one. Sometimes we choose to stand at a closed door and hope that it will somehow open, although that may defy logic and although we may know deep down that no goodness will come from it. We wait. We choose to wait. We choose to have hope, and we're always scared that the door will open the second we walk away. We claim ownership over what we do not have and fear losing it, although it really never was ours.

The foundation is built from two things: self-acceptance (you must feel worthy of the foundation) and self-awareness (knowing who you are).