Almost all the time, you tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. This only looks like love. - Chuck Palahniuk

In journalism school, what they want you to be is a camera. A trained, objective, detached professional. Accurate, polished, and observant. They want you to believe that the new and you are always two separate things. Killers and reporters are mutually exclusive. Whatever the story, this isn't about you.

"Until you can ignore your circumstances, and just do as you promise," he says, "you'll always be controlled by the world."

I admire addicts. In a world where everybody is waiting for some blind, random disaster or some sudden disease, the addict has the comfort of knowing what will most likely wait for him down the road. He's taken some control over his ultimate fate, and his addiction keeps the cause of his death from being a total surprise.