I didn’t see a chance to feel so terribly bad again and not be myself - Michelle Botes

Life is so contradictory; I am dying, but everywhere in nature there are signs of new life. This gives me joy and peace

When my friends say they can’t understand why I don’t want to continue chemotherapy, I explain that I am happy and at peace now again. More chemo, steroids, and transplants may extend my lifespan slightly, but then I am constantly anxious and sick and never fully myself to enjoy life

Whatever awaits me, I'm ready