That is what you have to do before you kill, I thought. You have to create an it, where none was before. - Margaret Atwood

I don't want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done something wrong, something so huge I can't even see it, something that's drowning me. I am inadequate and stupid, without worth. I might as well be dead.

As it says in the Bible, For now we through a glass, darkly; but then face to face.
If it is face to face, there must be two looking.

Sympathy from strangers can be ruinous.