by then I'd figured out the gift of failure, which is that it breaks through all that held breath and isometric tension about needing to look good: i… - Anne Lamott

Age has given me the gift of me, it just gave me what I was always longing for, which was to get to be the woman I've already dreamt of being. Which is somebody who can do rest and do hard work and be a really constant companion, a constant tender-hearted wife to myself.

This is where I liked to be when I was hangover or coming down off a cocaine binge, here in the dust with all these dusty people, all this liveliness and clutter and color, things for sale to cheer me up, and greasy food that would slip down by throat.

I was frozen like in a dream when your feet weigh fifty pounds each and the danger is almost upon you.