Probably she should not have gotten away with it for as long as she had...but sometime, he had often thought, the retribution will come: reality deni… - Philip K. Dick

Reality denied comes back to haunt.

After he saw God he felt really good, for around a year. And then he felt really bad. Worse than he ever had before in his life. Because one day it came over him, he began to realize, that he was never going to see God again; he was going to live out his whole remaining life, decades, maybe fifty years, and see nothing but what he had always seen. What we see. He was worse off than if he hadn't seen God.

Perhaps if you know you are insane then you are not insane. Or you are becoming sane, finally.

There is certainly no hope left of getting away. And it isn't even terrible; it's possibly funny, if even that. It's embarrassing. That's all. A little embarrassing to realize that I no longer control my life, that the major decisions have already been made, long before I was conscious that any change was occurring.