Just for the record darling, not all positive change feels positive in the beginning. - S C Lourie

Honor that girl inside of you. Remember who you were before you cared what you look like. Before you knew the sting of rejection. Before you were told that you couldn’t, or that you weren’t or that you hadn’t. You are still that girl - before the roles, the labels, the pains, that girl lives on. She is the goddess within you.

Breathe, darling. This is just a chapter. It's not your whole story.

One day,
someone so close to you
will see you crack under pressure.
They'll watch you fall to pieces
on the floor
and come and sit
so close next to you
They won't pick up your pieces
They'll leave them as they are
and make you feel loved
and felt and seen,
in your puddle of mud
and mess, regardless.
They'll make you feel like
you don't have to clean anything up,
like you don't have to hide
any of these pieces away again
Because you don't
Because it's those same pieces
that make you so damn lovable.