One day you will wake up & there won’t be any more time to do the things you’ve always wanted. Do it now. - Paulo Coelho

God only rarely reveals the future. When he does so, it is for one reason: it's a future that was written so as to be altered.

"The secret is here in the present. If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And, if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better." — The Alchemist

You are someone who is different, but who wants to be the same as everyone else. And that in my view is a serious illness. God chose you to be different. Why are you disappointing God with this kind of attitude?