The story of my life is wanting, hungering, for what I cannot have or, perhaps, wanting what I dare not allow myself to have. - Roxane Gay

I do not suffer from ignorance where exercise is related. I suffer from inertia.

As a woman, as a fat woman, I am not supposed to take up space. And yet, as a feminist, I am encouraged to believe I can take up space. I live in a contradictory space where I should try to take up space but not too much of it, and not in the wrong way, where the wrong way is any way where my body is concerned.

There is no pleasure to be had in writing about trauma. It requires opening a wound, looking into the bloody gape of it, and cleaning it out, one word at a time. Only then might it be possible for that wound to heal.