[Y]ou have to save yourself before you can save anyone else. - Philipp Meyer

I wonder if I am going crazy or if I do not love my family enough, or if it is the opposite, if I love them too much. If I am the only sane person I know.

To be a simple animal like my father, untroubled by consciousness, or conscience. To sleep soundly, at east with your certainties, men as expendable as beef. (p. 161)

Mental note if you make it to forty remember on how all those fucks treated her. Stop being an asshole while you're still young.