I hope you never think about anything as much as I think about you. - Jonathan Safran Foer

I did not need to know if he could love me.
I needed to know if he could need me.

I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others — The only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad.

Sometimes I can feel my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not living. (p. 113)