"At times, the solution to a maze is to reduce it to embers ans walk straight through the ashes." — Mary Doria Russell, Children of God - Mary Doria Russell

No one who does not live with constant pain can imagine the toll it takes. The way it grinds you down. The sheer damnable tedium of it.

That was when it came to him that the only unmixed happiness he could think of was when he quit his job with the city after that fight with Bob Wright. So he told Doc that, too, and said, “I never meant to be a lawman. Stumbled into it, really. When I quit, it was a weight off.” Dealing

Cynicism and foul language are the only vices I'm presently capable of. Everything else takes energy or money. (64)