Every time you remember something, the memory weakens, as you’re remembering the last recollection, rather than the memory itself. Nothing can remain… - Caleb Azumah Nelson

You know that to love is both to swim and to drown. You know to love is to be a whole, partial, a joint, a fracture, a heart, a bone. It is to bleed and heal. It is to be in the world, honest. It is to place someone next to your beating heart, in the absolute darkness of your inner, and trust they will hold you close. To love is to trust, to trust is to have faith. How else are you meant to love? You knew what you were getting into, but taking the Underground, returning home with no certainty of when you will see her next, it is terrifying.

It’s one thing to be looked at, and another to be seen.

You ache. You ache all over. You are aching to be you, but you're scared of what it means to do so.