Its so horrible to see your own confusion and understand it. - Ingmar Bergman

Mi vida ha sido algo completamente vacío, sin sentido. He cazado, he viajado, he convivido con todo el mundo. Pero todo ha sido inútil... Lo digo sin vergüenza y sin remordimiento, porque sé que la vida de los hombres está hecha así. Es precisamente por eso por lo que deseo utilizar mi aplazamiento: para realizar aunque sólo sea un único acto que tenga alguna significación.

I am very much aware of my own double self... The well-known one is very under control; everything is planned and very secure. The unknown one can be very unpleasant. I think this side is responsible for all the creative work — he is in touch with the child. He is not rational, he is impulsive and extremely emotional. Perhaps it is not even a "he," but a "she."

Jöns: But feel, to the very end, the triumph of being alive!