I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful, So unloved and for someone so fine. I can feel so boring for someone so interesting, So ignorant for s… - Alanis Morissette

Day one, day one,
Start over again.
Step one, step one,
I'm barely making sense.
For now, I'm faking it
Until I'm pseudo making it.
From scratch, begin again,
But this time "I" as "I"
And not as "we".

There's a lyric in the middle of the song that says, "I want to decide between survival and bliss." Basically I'm talking about the difference between really being alive and really embracing the reason why I'm here on this earth versus my just being asleep and sleep walking and accepting the status quo and accepting somewhat of a suffering mentality to being here. It really is my responsibility to distinguish the difference between the two and choose which one I want. It's so easy for me to want to not take responsibility for my life and relinquish it and look outside of myself for the answers that I know very well are within me. It's so scary to be silent and it's so scary to go within, until I do it. And once I'm doing it, I just wonder why I wasn't doing this all the time. So that decision to be fully alive is one that is preceded by some pretty intense decisions and some choices and responsibility-taking that at times can be very intimidating, again, before I do it.

I'm broke, but I'm happy.
I'm poor, but I'm kind.
I'm short, but I'm healthy, yeah.
I'm high, but I'm grounded.
I'm sane, but I'm overwhelmed.
I'm lost, but I'm hopeful, baby. And what it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine, fine, fine.
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is givin' a high five.