Must be strangely exciting To watch the stoic squirm. Must be somewhat heartening To watch shepherd need shepherd But you, you're not allowed. You're… - Alanis Morissette

There's a lyric in the middle of the song that says, "I want to decide between survival and bliss." Basically I'm talking about the difference between really being alive and really embracing the reason why I'm here on this earth versus my just being asleep and sleep walking and accepting the status quo and accepting somewhat of a suffering mentality to being here. It really is my responsibility to distinguish the difference between the two and choose which one I want. It's so easy for me to want to not take responsibility for my life and relinquish it and look outside of myself for the answers that I know very well are within me. It's so scary to be silent and it's so scary to go within, until I do it. And once I'm doing it, I just wonder why I wasn't doing this all the time. So that decision to be fully alive is one that is preceded by some pretty intense decisions and some choices and responsibility-taking that at times can be very intimidating, again, before I do it.

This is in praise of the vulnerable man,
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home?

You're unsure and you're not ready,
So that must mean I want you.
You're unavailable and disinterested,
To you I look for comfort.
A million times in a million ways,
I will try to change you.
A million months and a million days,
I'll try to convince you.