The ability to think for one's self depends upon one's mastery of the language. - Joan Didion

I did not want to finish the year because I know that as the days pass, as January becomes February and February becomes summer, certain things will happen.

if someone “chose” you, what does that tell you? Doesn’t it tell you that you were available to be “chosen”? Doesn’t it tell you, in the end, that there are only two people in the world? The one who “chose” you? And the other who didn’t?

What's so hard about that first sentence is that you're stuck with it. Everything else is going to flow out of that sentence. And by the time you've laid down the first two sentences, your options are all gone.