There doesn't seem to be a more worthwhile endeavor to dedicate your life to than to see what you are capable of. - Dan Koe

Building a project will teach you more than watching a tutorial ever will.

You would learn faster if you actually started building the thing.

You aren't where you want to be because you don't want to be there more than you want to be where you are. Your behavior is your confession. You say you want a better life (mostly for social approval), but when something more instant and pleasurable comes around, your actions show that you want that more.