Maybe, a decade older than I was, he knew what I would eventually learn: it’s possible for two men to become addicted to the damage they do to each o… - Saeed Jones

Too much had happened for me to keep waking up surrounded by the lie of continuity.

"You never forget your first "faggot." Because the memory, in its way, makes you. It becomes a spine for the body of anxieties and insecurities that will follow, something to hang all that meat on. Before you were just scrawny; now you're scrawny because you're a faggot. Before you were just bookish; now you're bookish because you're a faggot."

How did other people concentrate with all these bodies just walking around all the time? So many men and boys, each with bodies to study and memorize.