God sometimes does His work with gentle drizzle, not storms. - John Newton

Thus the Lord, by pain, sickness, and disappointments, by breaking our cisterns and withering our gourds — weakens our attachment to this world, and makes the thought of leaving it, more easy and more desirable.

We have no Scriptural evidence that we serve the Lord at all, any farther than we find a habitual desire and aim to serve him wholly.
He is gracious to our imperfections and
weakness; yet he requires all the heart, and
will not be served by halves, nor accept what is performed by a divided heart.

However, let us give ourselves to the study of the word, and to prayer; and may the great Teacher make every scriptural truth food to our souls. I desire to grow in knowledge, but I want nothing which bears that name that has not a direct tendency to make sin more hateful, Jesus more precious to my soul; and at the same time to animate me to a diligent use of every appointed means, and an unreserved regard to every branch of duty.