What is believed in society is not always the equivalent of what is true; but as regards to a woman's reputation, it amounts to the same thing. - Margaret Atwood

And she finds it difficult to believe — that a person would love her even when she isn't trying. Trying to figure out what other people need, trying to be worthy.

Tell me, Elly Kleinman, why do men feel threatened by women?

What is it the I'll want from you? Not love: that would be too much to ask. Not forgiveness, which isn't yours to bestow. Only a listener, perhaps; only someone who will see me. Don't prettify me though, whatever else you do: I have no wish to be a decorated skull.
But I leave myself in your hands. What choice do I have? By the time you read this last page, that- if anywhere- is the only place I will be.