The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes. MARCEL PROUST - Jeff Foster

There is nothing to figure out, and nothing to understand. You are not a person. There is not such thing as a person. The so-called person is merely a thought in the mind of God. In truth, it’s even not that. There is only pure Awareness, Consciousness - formless, unborn and undying, and that is who you are. How can the apparent mind possibly comprehend this? It is not possible. The finite can never understand the infinite. The mind does not exist. Seek the Source of the mind, the Source of the ‘I-thought’, by constant, patient Self-enquiry. When the mind is quiet, You shine in all your glory. Be Yourself, and be happy.

The life you are trying to understand is identical with the ‘you’ that is trying to understand it.

Friend, I love your rebellious heart.