Have you no wish for others to be saved? Then you're not saved yourself, be sure of that! - Charles Haddon Spurgeon

The Lord's mercy often rides to the door of our hearts on the black horse of affliction. Jesus uses the whole range of our experiences to wean us from earth and woo us to Heaven.

Give yourself to reading.’... You need to read. Renounce as much as you will all light literature, but study as much as possible sound theological works,
especially the Puritanic writers, and expositions of the Bible.

As for His failing you, never dream of it — hate the thought of it. The God who has been sufficient until now, should be trusted to the end.