Everytime I close my eyes it's like a dark paradise. No one compares to you, I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side. - Lana Del Rey

I once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet, but upon an unfortunate series of events saw those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken.
But I didn't really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it to know what true freedom is.
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I'd been living, they asked me why - but there's no use in talking to people who have home.
They have no idea what it's like to seek safety in other people - for home to be wherever you lay your head.

it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it, to know what true freedom is

I was always an unusual girl,
my mother told me I had a chameleon soul
No moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality;
just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean
I belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone
who had nothing, who wanted everything