Half of life is fucking up, the other half is dealing with it. - Henry Rollins

I look at pictures of you because I am afraid that you would notice me staring in real life. I looked at your picture today for countless minutes. It is closer than I’ll ever get to you for real. I felt like I was looking at a captured animal at a safe distance. If you knew I was doing this, you would feel sickened and frightened. That’s why you’ll never know. Years will go by and you’ll never know. I will never say the things that I want to say to you. I know the damage it would do. I love you more than I hate my loneliness and pain.

I want to be that which overcomes itself Listening to them makes me weak and small I watch them go out and fuck each other They tell me that I’m crazy The years scar me I don’t want a smooth ride I want the crushing wheel

I got my heart broken. My spirit got shattered and mutilated. I will not be coming back from this. I don’t want to.