People think I was writing it for a group of people, when actually I was writing about one person. The truth was, I loved this person so much, and us… - Mitski

Even when I'm in a scene I don't think of myself as being in the scene. I'm very conscious of myself being an outsider. I think that has to do with my upbringing outside of the US – not just my heritage but that I grew up differently. I moved to a different country every year or every other year…a lot of different places due to my father's occupation.

It was right around Christmas… and it was kind of too expensive for me to try to fly back from Australia to the U.S. on holiday prices, so I just decided to stay in that side of the world. I went to Malaysia instead…I thought it would be a great vacation, but I went alone, and I went during the holidays when everyone else is spending time with their families, and so, long story short, I ended up feeling incredibly, devastatingly alone… I think of myself as, you know, a very solitary, kind of introverted person, so I didn't plan for loneliness, and then it just happened and I didn't know what to do about it. So I wrote a song.

The phrase 'Be the cowboy you want to see in the world' has been an inside joke between me and myself…I would always kind of say it to myself in situations where I feel like I'm sort of trapped in my own mind. Like, 'Oh, what would a swaggering, western movie cowboy do in this situation?'