And I am left behind Corrupted crushed and blind All for a dream That in truth was never really mine. - Rufus Wainwright

The song is about knowing the end result of every situation you're in, and being able to play it out in your mind and see it before it happens. It's about addiction, really, about knowing how it's all going to end up. In that sense, you're watching a movie of yourself all the time – and then you want out of that movie.

Somebody curse the light
And take me far away from myself

Why am I always on a plane or a fast train?
Oh what a world my parents gave me
Always
Travelin' but not in love.<p>Still I think I'm doin' fine
Wouldn't it be a lovely headline?
Life is
Beautiful on a New York Times.