It's the shadow on every kiss and every dollar, that it might not be there tomorrow. - Alexander Chee

It's a strange time to teach someone to write stories. But I think it always is. This is just our strange time.

That boys do things together and it's a secret. That we are boys and not men dressed like children, surprised by the passage of even a year. And as he kisses me I try to decide, if he likes secrets better than kisses. After, I decide it's kisses.

There are two kinds of people, I think: those who want to know the future and those who do not. I've never met anyone ambivalent about this. I have been both kinds. For now, I think I know which one is better, but I'm prepared to change my mind again. It may be I am like that drunk who tells himself he can handle his alcohol now. But if I told you I could tell the future, you would laugh at me. And I would laugh at me too.