determined to ask those of heaven to heal me — for I wished, nevertheless, to be well, though I bore my illness with great joy. Sometimes, too, I use… - Teresa of Ávila

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determined to ask those of heaven to heal me — for I wished, nevertheless, to be well, though I bore my illness with great joy. Sometimes, too, I used to think that if I recovered my health, and yet were lost for ever, I was better as I was. But, for all that, I thought I might serve God much better if I were well. This is our delusion; we do not resign ourselves absolutely to the disposition of our Lord, Who knows best what is for our good.