I've never been in love. I've dreamt of it day and night, but my heart is like a fine piano no one can play because the key is lost. - Anton Chekhov

Fine. Since the tea is not forthcoming, let's have a philosophical conversation.

رأسي مكتظ ، ممتلئ إلى حافته بالأفكار ، و استطيع أن أحس بنبضه و اختلاجاته . أنا لا أهدف إلى أن أكون شيئا غير عادي ، و لا أتوقع أن أخلق إحدي الروائع ، كل ما أريده هو أن أعيش ، و أحلم ، و أتطلع ، و لا يفوتني شئ .. الحياة يا صديقى العزيز ، قصيرة جدا ، و يجب أن نستغلها بأقصي ما نستطيع

As he was speaking, he kept reminding himself that he was going to a rendezvous and that not a living soul knew about it, or, probably, ever would. He led a double life — one in public, in the sight of all whom it concerned, full of conventional truth and conventional deception, exactly like the lives of his friends and acquaintances, and another which flowed in secret. And, owing to some strange, possibly quite accidental chain of circumstances, everything that was important, interesting, essential, everything about which he was sincere and never deceived himself, everything that composed the kernel of his life, went on in secret, while everything that was false in him, everything that composed the husk in which he hid himself and the truth which was in him — his work at the bank, discussions at the club, his 'lower race,' his attendance at anniversary celebrations with his wife — was on the surface. He began to judge others by himself, no longer believing what he saw, and always assuming that the real, the only interesting life of every individual goes on as under cover of night, secretly. Every individual existence revolves around mystery, and perhaps that is the chief reason that all cultivated individuals insisted so strongly on the respect due to personal secrets.