You told me I couldn't live as a gay man, but now I am going to die as one. - Lou Sullivan

But I haven't a lover, and one who may materialize between now and then may not be close enough to my heart to merit those last moments with me.
How do I want to die?

I wanna look like what I am but don't know what someone like me looks like. I mean, when people look at me I want them to think — there's one of those people that reasons, that is a philosopher, that has their own interpretation of happiness. That's what I am.

I took a certain pleasure in informing the gender clinic that even though their program told me I could not live as a Gay man, it looks like I'm going to die like one.