All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. - Ralph Ellison

Live with your head in the lion’s mouth.

But live you must, and you can either make passive love to your sickness or burn it out and go on to the next conflicting phase.

It goes a long way back, some twenty years. All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naive. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: That I am nobody but myself. But first I had to discover that I am an invisible man!