L.N. said that before one spoke about women's inequality and oppression one should first talk about people's inequality in general. And he said that … - Sophia Tolstaya

His coldness is a torture to me, and I have started to seek other things to fill my inner life, and have learnt to love music, to read into it and discern the complicated human emotions contained in it; but not only is music disapproved of in this house, I am bitterly criticised for it, so once again I feel that my life has no purpose, and bowing my back I copy out some boring article on art for the tenth time, trying to find some consolation in doing my duty, but my lively nature resents it and I long for a life of my own, and when there's an icy wind blowing I rush out of the house, run through the forest to the Voronka and throw myself into the freezing water, and there's some pleasure in the physical emotion.

If I could kill him and create a new person exactly the same as he is now, I would do so happily.

We live in such isolation, and here I am again with my silent friend, my diary.