banking is like religion: you have to accept certain rather dicey things simply on faith, and then everything else follows in marvellous logic. - Robertson Davies

Sometimes fear could be forgotten, but never for long.

For I was, as you have already guessed, a collaborator with Destiny, not one who put a pistol to its head and demanded particular treasures. The only thing for me to do was to keep on keeping on, to have faith in my whim, and remember that for me, as for the saints, illumination when it came would probably come from some unexpected source.

Ti si Boga stvorio po sopstvenoj slici, pa kad si otkrio da nije dobar, prestao si da veruješ u Njega. To je sasvim uobičajen vid psihološkog samoubistva