I don't want everyone to like me; I should think less of myself if some people did.

I live only because it is in my power to die when I choose to: without the idea of suicide, I'd have killed myself right away.

I’d rather be dead than so suspicious I can’t trust anybody.

I have nobody in the world. I'll kill myself. That's best. Everyone will say, It's for the best that she killed herself, she's better off dead . . . I hate myself so much I could spend hours and hours just screaming with hatred and with the pain of it, oh the pain of it . . .

I don't want to have to tell them that my life lost all its meaning when they died. They loved me, and they wouldn't want that.

It would be a shame if you were killed. I should be very sorry. I know I wouldn't like it to happen to me.

Why do you want the approval of others who don't even approve of themselves?

Je voudrais mourir à présent, vite, avant d'avoir compris de nouveau que je suis seule.

People don't want to be told that what they're doing might not be the right thing or might not make everybody happy. But I am somebody who – I don't just go along to get along.

Don't ever say this to me, "Are you O.K.?" It's like "Yeah, motherfucker, I'm fine."

I would rather die having spoken after my manner, than speak in your manner and live.

"I think there must be probably different types of suicides. I'm not one of the self-hating ones. The type of like "I'm shit and the world'd be better off without poor me" type that says that but also imagines what everybody'll say at their funeral. I've met types like that on wards. Poor-me-I-hate-me-punish-me-come-to-my-funeral. Then they show you a 20 X 25 glossy of their dead cat. It's all self-pity bullshit. It's bullshit. I didn't have any special grudges. I didn't fail an exam or get dumped by anybody. All these types. Hurt themselves. I didn't want to especially hurt myself. Or like punish. I don't hate myself. I just wanted out. I didn't want to play anymore is all. I wanted to just stop being conscious. I'm a whole different type. I wanted to stop feeling this way. If I could have just put myself in a really long coma I would have done that. Or given myself shock I would have done that. Instead."

I don't encourage anybody to do what I do, you know? Why should you? More for me!

The worst thing that could possibly happen to anybody would be to not be used for anything by anybody. Thank you for using me, even though I didn't want to be used by anybody.